Discover prompt for the day is “pairs” and I’ve had such crazy thoughts about what to write. I want to write about something happy but I think this post is going to be introspective.
Do you believe in love? Do you believe that there is someone out there for everyone? Do you believe in soulmates?
I was a hopeless romantic while growing up. I spent a lot of time fantasizing about falling in love and finding THE one. Whenever I’d meet someone I’d like – I’d convince myself it’s destiny and start looking for signs from the universe that he was my soulmate. I think I’ve had many dreams while growing up but finding my soulmate was the biggest dream of them all.
And as it often happens, I did find someone that I thought was my soulmate. The one to complete my pair. The one I thought I’d spend the rest of my life with. And as it often happens, things didn’t work out.
While I did move on (eventually), a lot of what I belived in changed. Maybe more than my belief system changing, I got scared, scared to let anyone else in again. I do see a lot of my friends who have found their significant others but my perspective of seeing them has changed. Earlier I’d look at them with awe and believe that they’re lucky but now I see the flaws in their relationships. Maybe I’m looking for ways to convince myself to not give love another chance but right now I think being on my own is far better than being in a pair.
So I reach out to you, whoever is reading this, looking for hope. Are you in love? Do you believe in love? Maybe someone will be able to change my mind.