Discover prompt word for the day is “slow”. Couldn’t find a better place to vent about everything going on right now than here.
The weirdest thing about life right now is that staying at home is pretty hectic – with all the cleaning, cooking, working from home but it’s also extremely slow. It’s like the day goes very fast but life is moving extremely slow. I feel like one of those cartoons who runs very fast but doesn’t build up any speed. Or like I’m playing a part in an old, slow black and white movie.
There are so many things that I had planned for April-May that have all come to a screeching halt. I was supposed to be moving cities sometime in the next 2-3 weeks. But with the lockdown extended in India till 3rd May, the move has been postponed. I had also planned two trips one for April & one for May but those had to be cancelled too. It seems like the next 3-4 months are going to be more focused on surviving than achieving much.
Everyone seems to be talking about making the best of time during lockdown. I really don’t seem to understand where this time is coming from. My days are still very hectic and at the end of each day I still feel like I haven’t achieved anything. People are suddenly becoming chefs and trying out new recipes but that’s something I do on a daily basis anyhow, so no big feat over there. People are learning new courses – I honestly do want to learn something new but whenever I’m done with the work for the day – I’m so exhausted. It’s not just physical exhaustion I also feel mentally drained.
I’m someone who loves staying home on weekends and enjoying just chilling at home by myself. But I’m also someone who likes a lot of activity, roaming around and being adventurous. I feel like the adventurous side of me is getting very impatient with this slow pace of life. I know this will sound very shallow given the current circumstances but I really just want to feel travel anxiety in the pit of my stomach. (Do check out my Instagram for my travel feed – @mokshahegde)
I think I’m also very anxious for all of my loved ones. I live away from everyone dear to me and I think in this whole pandemic situation, I’m just constantly worried about them taking the required precautions to stay safe.
So basically I feel like this full situation is “slowly” driving me crazy! Please tell me you relate with me and I’m not the only crazy one.