The Discover Prompt word for yesterday was “tempo” which got me thinking – a lot. The last 15 days I have been promptly sitting to write a blog everyday. On many days, I didn’t have a great idea on the blog but I nevertheless still tried my hand at writing an interesting blog. Until I realised day before yesterday that I was driving myself a little crazy trying to keep up with the day to day pace of writing these blogs. I’m a very methodological person. My usual days are divided and compartmentalized basis the requirements of the day. I have a timer set for everything I do. It’s not like I restrict myself timewise. I do give myself ample time to complete tasks, eg: I set aside 3 hours to complete an hour long task but I expect myself to complete the work in the time slot I’ve set for it, say 4-7PM. I do this because it helps me manage my time and productivity. I think it works very well on normal days but these days with all the anxiety and crazy surrounding me, I feel like this system is just adding extra pressure onto me . Pressure that I couldn’t deal with. So I decided to give myself a break for the last two days from writing and blow steam off on this. I want this blog to be fun and meaningful for me and the reader.
Funnily, this is something that I’ve started following in my life too. Not taking pressure about ticking off things from life’s bucket list just because time is running and need to do it all. Marriage, buying a house, kids, etc. is a long list of items that people are usually in a hurry to complete and tick off from their list. It’s a rat race to the completion line. After running the rat race for the first 25years of my life, I decided to just be the tortoise (tortoise and the hare story). I’m going to march at my own pace, doing things that matter most to be and not compete with others in the rat race of life. It’s very difficult to do considering your family have expectations from you. Also, your friends are still running the rat race and you see them achieve the conventional bucket list items which makes you wonder if your path is the right path. Not caring about what other people think about you is the first step towards breaking away from the conventional life journey. This step is also the hardest. I haven’t been able to absolutely thick skin myself but I’m getting there. I want to live a life that I enjoy, that motivates and inspires me everyday. Here’s hoping I’m able to do that!
Where has your life path taken you? Are you someone who puts a lot of pressure on achieving your dreams or are you more chill about life?