Have you ever had those moments when you really want to do something but no matter how hard you try you just aren’t able to bring yourself to do it? I’ve been feeling that way about writing. There’s so much I want to write about but I just can’t get myself to sit down and do it. Usually such phases are triggered by my anxiety but this time I just can’t put my finger on it. Maybe it’s a phase of writer’s block but I hope it’s not because I really enjoy putting my thoughts into posts out here. Maybe I am a little stressed as the followers count increases – I spend hours re-reading and judging every post to see how a stranger reading it would perceive it. Maybe it’s just that I really want to write inspired content but I feel like my last few posts were just about okay and I want to do better than that. Maybe I just feel like my writing is nowhere close to as well as some people write on here – the amazing bloggers that I follow who are able to wow me with almost all their posts. Maybe there isn’t much happening in my life to inspire my posts – don’t get me wrong, life is hectic and crazy but it does lack the adventure of pre-covid days. Maybe I’m changing as a person through this crazy phase (read as: 2020) and I need to understand myself to better express myself on here (if that makes sense). Or maybe I just need to go easy on myself and not pressurise myself to post something every few days.
The last two weeks were hectic, happy and super exciting. The upcoming week is looking to be the same. So instead of letting the pressure of posting loom over my head as a grey cloud, I’m going to choose to let the words flow when they do. It could be a day or two or a week or more but I’m going to let myself take time so that I can post content that makes me truly proud. This blog has been my happy place these past few months and I’d like it to stay the same.
How have you been doing? What inspires you to write?
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