The last 2-3 weeks have been hard. It’s been super frustrating – work, me, people I am working with, friends and others. I am frustrated enough to ignore the piling up work to blog instead. I haven’t been the best version of myself for me these past few weeks and I really need to work on it. I’ve been hard at myself for not being able to keep up and for requiring down time – but isn’t that only human?
Things I’ve Not Been Keeping Up With In April
This blog and my blogging fam – I haven’t been the most present these past few weeks – I’ve tried to keep up with posting and reading posts but it has just been SO hard. So if I haven’t engaged with you on your last few posts – know it’s not you, it’s me and I’m going to catch a breather soon and read all the posts I’ve missed!
Being kind to myself – I don’t deal well with stress and it acts up in my sleeping schedule – I wake up every night in panic (thank you anxiety) and instead of being nice to myself – I end up reprimanding myself for not doing stuff right and ending up with all the stress. I’ve also been binge eating a lot to cope with the stress and it is just the worst thing I can do – since its taken me years to break that cycle. I really need some self care time this weekend!
Being patient – I’ve been working with a vendor for the past 2 months – when I finally got the work I needed from him – it was shoddy and sloppy. When I explained it to him – he refused to accept blame for the shoddy work and instead left me to clean up the mess. All in all – my patience level has been breached and I am PISSED AF.
Being productive – I honestly feel like I can increase my productivity a lot but I just feel like time keeps passing and I am unable to finish things off – I think I’m bad at managing my day and once I’m off work I’m bad at managing my off time too. I really need a lesson on time management!
Working out – I need to get back into a routine of working out for 30 mins every day – it is what keeps me sane but I just haven’t had the time or energy to do so.
Cooking – I love cooking and it helps me destress but I just haven’t had the energy or mood to cook this past week – I have been cooking but nothing amazing because I’ve been cooking just for surviving.
Being kind to people around me – I have 10 pending calls that I have to make to friends who I promised I’d call but never got around to calling. If you’re one of them – I’m sorry – but I will get back to you shortly. I haven’t been present in the lives of those around me – and I want to do better on this in the coming weeks.
Being self employed – I saw this relatable meme which went like – ‘why is it hard working for myself?’ – because I am a very strict boss and a very lazy employee. Boy, do I relate with this! I am so harsh as a boss with setting timelines for myself and I am an equally lazy employee who just wants to postpone the tough work – so yeah – it’s been a hard few weeks!
Reading – I’m not proud of it but I haven’t read a single page yet! Every time I’m off work I just crave to re-watch a comfort show like Gilmore Girls or Brooklyn 99 or The Middle – and totally don’t feel like reading. It’s also probably because my 3 TBR for the month are all very heavy reads. If you have any light read recommendations – please let me know in the comments.
Here’s hoping I do better in the coming weeks. How have you been doing these past few weeks? Let me know in the comments below! ❤
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