“Should I stop blogging?”
“What is the point?”
I haven’t felt like writing in the past few days. The irritation that came along with it ensured I stayed away from the WP app. I did login to read posts but far lesser than I usually do. For the first time in the last one year – I felt like quitting on the blogging world. ‘Writer’s block’ can drive you crazy especially if you are used to writing almost every day. In preparation of moments like these, I have a bunch of draft posts that are 75% complete and require only formatting and image adding to be posting ready. My funk made doing this bare minimum effort feel so difficult. I have this amazing post almost done that I’ve been working on for 3 weeks but I just am not able to get it into a form that I am happy with. So overall it has been super frustrating to write!
I’ve had a few bouts of writer’s block over the past year. For someone who posts 3 times a week – it is only natural to run out of things to say. Sometimes these bouts last a few days and I suddenly find the inspiration for a new post. Sometimes it lasts a few weeks and I rely on older posts to get me through it. But it is almost always caused by my heightened anxiety. I’m back in office after the crazy COVID wave that India just went through – I feel very anxious. I postponed going back to office by a few days because leaving the house with all these crazy anxious thoughts was close to impossible. I have been having a lot of nightmares and sleeping has been difficult. (I am getting help.) So many people lost their lives in the mere duration of 2 months – it is just unfathomable. It also angers me that no one has been held responsible for the plight that our country went through thanks to the incompetent people in power.
But I am also excited to be back to working on my business. It was stalled these past 2 months because of COVID and a lot of my projects have been on hold since my vendors were also impacted by COVID. Here’s hoping I can get things back on track soon with new launches and products. It has been a crazy journey these past 4-5 months of working on my own – I am still nervous about it all but I believe that no matter what – it is going to be a journey to remember.
Sometimes it is so hard to express what you’re feeling. For an introvert like me, sharing my emotions and fears is even harder. I try to keep it all bottled inside me till I can take it no more. But I’m working on being more vocal about how I feel and getting help when I need it.
So, if you’ve been struggling with something and need to vent – reach out to me (an anonymous stranger) and I’ll try to be there for you. ❤ How are you?
Hope your Monday is going well!
While I work on new content, give my old posts some love –