The blogging world and offline is filled with so many inspirational posts about ‘New Year = New Me’. I’ve been a resolution junkie all my life i.e. making a long list of resolutions for the year on the first and trying for the first few weeks to do them and always inevitably giving up by February. I started this practice in my teens and kept at it till my mid-twenties. As I read Bloganuary’s first prompt, I felt tempted to review my New Year’s resolutions from 15 years back, back in school preparing for high school and beyond.
Resolution #1: Lose Weight
The number of years this resolution has made my list! Ever since I was younger, I was constantly made to feel like my weight made me ugly and every year, I’d vow to lose weight and start on a weight loss journey in January only to abandon it a few months in.
What my resolution should have been – To be more active and eat healthy.
I had a pretty sedentary lifestyle in high school since I’d wedge out in front of my books studying ALL day in the hopes of getting through the top colleges in India. I’d also binge eat as a way to reduce my stress. The correct resolution should have been to just eat healthy and go do some sort of physical activity every single day.
(Read my post on accepting myself as I am with all my flaws.)
Resolution #2: Study 18+ Hours A Day To Make Sure I Clear My Dream College
I was obsessed with getting through my dream college to the point that I’d study till 1AM and wake up again at 5AM and study before heading to school. I wouldn’t talk to friends and not do anything fun since it would distract me from my goal of being the best.
What my resolution should have been – Work hard but also enjoy life beyond studies
15 years later I now know how much fun and carefree school days were. I’d have liked to spend less time worrying about my future and being so focused on proving that I am intelligent by getting a top rank. I’m pretty sure I’d have done equally well if I had chilled and enjoyed my final school years.
Resolution #3: Talk to that dream boat crush
I finally had my first real crush on this gorgeous boy in school. As much as I’d try, I couldn’t muster up the courage to go talk to him so I’d gawk at him from a distance forever thinking that he was out of my league.
What my resolution should have been – Just be myself around crush and get to know him to see if he has anything more than good looks to offer
I’ve spent so much time worrying that I might not be good enough for someone only to realize after wasting time that they weren’t worth my time. I wish I could have explained to me back then to up my self worth and just talk to him. Maybe it could have become more? 🙂
And that was a throwback to my simple resolution list from back in high school. I was pretty focused on studying (yes, I was a nerd) and didn’t really care about much else. I was a huge romantic too, always hoping to meet my soulmate at the next corner (argh). I really wish I could tell myself from back then to just chill out and enjoy school life, enjoy that moment instead of worrying about the future and wishing to grow up. What would you tell yourself from 15 years back?
Note: This post has been written with reference to the Bloganuary prompt – ‘What advice would you give to your teenage self?‘ Are you taking part in Bloganuary?
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