I try breathing but my breath gets caught in my throat like my breath is trying to choke me.
I try working out to distract my mind but feel myself tearing up a few minutes in.
I get ready to step out to get fresh air and feel the panic rising instantly forcing me back to the safety of my bed.
I try sleeping but wake up a few minutes in, panicked, scared and even more tired.
I try talking to a friend only to feel my words clamming up in my mouth.
I try screaming but nothing comes out of my mouth.
I try talking to my therapist but cancel my appointment last minute in total panic.
So I vegetate. Watching re-runs of Modern Family. Binge eating. Waiting for the palpitations in my heart to calm themselves down.
Note 1: I haven’t kept up with comments in my previous posts because I’ve been too anxious. I’ll get to them soon. Thank you for commenting and understanding me always. ❤️
Note 2: If you also have bouts of anxiety, sending happy thoughts your way.