I AM COMPLETELY BURNT OUT.
I’ve been struggling with work, personal life, and keeping up with the blogging world these past few weeks. There has been just too much going on in my life and I’ve finally reached a point of total burnout. A few weeks back I had planned to take a short vacation or staycation to just rejuvenate but bad news struck and I couldn’t. I feel so uninspired and exhausted every morning that I find it difficult to even leave my bed. Today I opened my closet to pick clothes and just had a literal meltdown because I wasn’t able to pick what I wanted to wear. I gave in to all the emotions that I have been running away from these past few weeks and cried into the crazy mess of clothes in my closet. I’ve been feeling guilty for feeling all these emotions because my parents who are dealing with even more have been managing to hold it together and still be productive and here I am crumbling. I hate being this weak.
I need a break. I need to get away from the craziness of my life and just be alone for a few days. I don’t want to worry about work, family, or anything. I just want to be alone in nature to give my brain some time to heal. Right now, I feel like jumping out of an airplane or standing on a cliff and screaming my lungs out. I don’t feel alive…I feel like I’m just going through the motions of daily life.
I know how depressing this post must read. I hate that this burnout is keeping me away from my blog. This space has kept me sane for the last few years but I haven’t felt like adding the pressure of blogging to all that is suffocating me already.
I also don’t feel like talking to anyone about any of this. I have friends reaching out to me every day trying to help me and yet, I keep shutting them out – and I don’t know why. This is why writing about this, here, always helps me feel better. I should just start journaling and save you all the trouble of reading through my sad thoughts but your kind words and advice always help me.
Maybe this post is sounding more depressed than I am – my burnt-out mind is amplifying everything. I just need a break. *SIGH*
Please share the good and positive things happening in your lives to give me hope that something good is going to happen to me soon. Also, if you’d like to help out with guest posts or collaborate on my blog – I’d really appreciate it. (Mail me at: firstname.lastname@example.org)
PS: I want to apologize to all my blogging friends whose posts I haven’t been keeping up with. I really hate missing out on all the updates from your life. I also want to thank you for all your kind words that are honestly, helping me more than you know.
PPS: My grandfather hasn’t been doing so well post his treatment. Just dealing with so much emotional distress is making me want to completely shut down.
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