When you are a kid, every birthday brings with it excitement for the celebration and growing up. Adulthood seems like a hood you’d love to live in. And then you grow up and realize that adulting sucks. And then each birthday brings with itself the dread of growing older and of not having achieved as much as you’d have liked by that age. Existential dread, mid-life crisis, adulting woes, life comparisons, worldly expectations, and the body parts aching – all start weighing you down. While growing up always seemed exciting; growing older just doesn’t.
So I turned a year older.
While ageing doesn’t really bother me, each birthday reminds me of how I still haven’t accomplished SO many goals that I set out to achieve and that reminder always makes me sad. With a lot of things bogging me down this birthday, I was in no mood to celebrate. However my sister and best friend wanted to do something. This birthday I wanted to just be out in nature and actually be a kid again – so I decided on having a picnic! A few friends and my siblings, went to this beautiful park and set up a picnic with some monuments as a backdrop. We played Cards Against Humanity and literally lost track of time – playing in torch light after it was DARK. And for those few hours, I forgot about all the things that have been weighing me down and just enjoyed a really fun time. Growing older doesn’t mean we can’t enjoy a few moments of mirth and kiddish freedom. It was an important reminder for me, to keep the child in me alive and find time to play.
How have you been? Does your birthday excite you or fill you with dread? Also, drop your sunsign in the comments and I’ll do a fun sunsign post in the near future. (I don’t really believe in sunsigns so it will be a funny post!)
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