I know the title of this post is obscure but as much as I tried, I couldn’t come up with something better. If you’ve been following along on my journey, you probably know about my fun/funny dating life. While I have met some incredible men and had some wonderful dates, I haven’t felt anything special for anyone in a really long time (read as 3 years). So, I have been freaking out because… well, I felt something for someone I met recently.
Before you jump the gun, no, it isn’t anything yet and it may not amount to anything either. I usually don’t write about my dating experiences as they are happening just cause I like for them to run their course before sharing about it on here. I am definitely jumping the gun by writing about this here already. But why am I writing about it?
- I am terrified – I’ve written about this before that I’m absolutely terrified of catching feelings. As much as I have looked forward to finding ‘the one’ I have also subconsciously been okay with not finding him because I am scared of intense feelings. I am terrified of the fear that comes with love, the fear of loss, the fear of not knowing or being able to control the outcome. But maybe writing about it here will help me get past this feeling of needing to control the outcome and be okay with going with the flow.
- I am excited – While I know that this will most probably not amount to anything, but I am excited about feeling whatever I am feeling. In all honestly, I had started to believe that I am dead inside considering I haven’t caught feelings for someone in a while despite meeting some of the nicest guys. So I am kind of excited to feel this way – almost like a teenage crush.
- I have renewed hope – I am okay with this not amounting to anything. I finally met someone who is exactly what I want – kind, intelligent and witty. And I am feeling the kind of feelings that don’t make me want to run away from it all. This gives me so much hope that even if this doesn’t work out there are guys like this out there and that I shouldn’t totally give up on dating and love already (which I had before this).
What do I need from you, my blogger friends? Just good wishes (minus any excitement because this isn’t anything yet) and any wisdom that you might have to share from your experiences. đ I’ll definitely share an update sometime in the future.
Sharing this song that I’ve been listening to on loop over the last few days (it is in Urdu so I don’t really understand the lyrics but it just makes me feel something. I mean I have checked the meaning online and it is beautiful but it is more than just the lyrics) –
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It’s always equally exciting and scary. I remember being stuck by a sudden rush of feeling when I first set eyes on my husband. Of course, back then we were in the first week of college and we had just talked to the first time. I pushed away the thought because I barely knew the guy. It took us almost a decade after our first meeting but we fell for each other and got married. Sometimes, your heart knows. Gut feeling can turn out to be right!
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Aww. Thanks for sharing your story. â¤ď¸
Trusting my gut on this one. âşď¸
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My pleasure. Good luck with that. I hope things work out well â¤ď¸đ¤
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I am feeling optimistic for you. Human feelings are so hard to wrap our brains aroundâbeing excited and guarded are perfectly normal. I know you’ll follow your heart. I had my share of bad dates before finding the right person.
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I’m happy for you! This is good news!
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Girllllll!!! Canât wait to see how this plays out!!! đđ
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It can definitely be terrifying/exciting. Sending you good wishes and positive vibes! đ
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Moksha! Good wishes from me to you!!! It sounds a bit like you’re preparing yourself for the worst (and honestly, I’m not a stranger to that mindset either) but sometimes we gotta let things fall where they may and hope for the best! đ
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I am not excited, I am not excited, I am NOT Excited…
How did I do Ru?
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How can I not be.
Enjoy yourself and take it one step at a time.. xo đ
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i am here for #3. take care and all the best
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Yay, lots of good wishes! I know getting yourself out there (especially if you’ve had bad experiences in the past) can be super scary, and opening yourself to someone also means risking to get hurt, but sometimes it is worth it. Even if this doesn’t end up in a happily ever after, don’t lose hope, there are amazing guys out there that can’t wait to discover how amazing you are!
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Thank you so much for the positivity and encouragement â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
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Thoughts thoughts and then a great story. Loved ir
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Good luck! For someone in love for 17 years and married for 12 now, these are some feelings that I can relate to when I first met my guy. Let it take its time and be who you are. All will be well.
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My best wishes to you and the person for whom you have these feelings.
There are two possible outcomes, if
1. IT WORKED: How to choose your only love after many dates?
2. IT DIDN’T WORK: (I wish it work.)
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